Miserable

I don’t know how people do it! Yesterday was my due date and my pelvis, hips and back started hurting last week, but yesterday the pain got so much worse. I am struggling just to walk. I have been sitting on my birth ball and that helps the hips and pelvis, but my back starts acting up as well as my tail bone. So the I switch to a chair. I need to switch back to the ball now. I am so tired from not sleeping because of the pain. I just want to meet my son! I am so tired of being pregnant! I never knew I would feel this way. With all of my struggles to get pregnant and my fear of never being able to have a baby, I always thought I would love it! I didn’t know all that pregnancy entailed. It has been rough for me (not near as bad as some) with being sick almost constantly, with my husband being sick, all the worry about wether he would be healthy and keeping an eye on his movements, and now all the pain my body is in, I am just DONE. With that being said I have cherished the time I have had with him. Watching my tummy roll and listening to his heartbeat has been amazing!

I had my 40 week appointment yesterday and I have not really progressed at all in 3 weeks. I told my mom that even though I do not want to be induced, if my doctor had offered it, I probably would have said yes. I just don’t know how others go for weeks past their due dates!! Hopefully soon I will get to be a mommy!